oh wow, i definitly haven't been on here in about a year and a half!!
idk how often i will update, but here's a new post :]

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We talk about the old times & it made me smile because you didn't forget.

sometimes, to keep it together,
you have to leave it alone.

the light is green, but i don't want to go

i want to be beautiful, make you stand in awe;
look inside my heart and be amazed.
i want to hear you say who i am is quite enough

i'm running out of excuses to talk to you.

We are all a little damaged... Some of us hide it better than others, but on some level, we are all torn up. We take it out on others & beat through life carrying it all & we will end up damaging someone else & most of the time, we won't even notice or bother to care because we are busy with our little disaster called life.

I PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR
LOOK LIKE A MOVIE STAR
FUCK LIKE A PORN STAR
BABY, I'M A SUPERSTAR

you never fall in love the same way twice.

women should be two things;
CLASSY&FABULOUS
-COCO Chanel

"some girls are just born winners" - juicy couture

"so pick me, choose me, love me"
- grey's anatomy

GIRL CAN'T HELP IT ;]

"the prettiest dresses
are worn to be
TAKEN OFF"
- Jean Cocteau

Thanks for all the comments guys!
i appreciate them.

i don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but i can tell you what it is for me, love is knowing all about someone, & still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable & safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room & smile at you.

we got older
but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we won't
feeling that we can't
that we're not ready to give up

"Let go, Let God"

It's you. You mean everything to me. You are the first in my head in the
morning when I wake up. My last thought before I go to bed. You smile
at me in my dreams. When you are sad, I feel sad and when I see your true
smile, I feel incredible... Like there is no other thing around and all I can
see is you.. You are my "Somewhere over the rainbow".

so i guess this is the ending
or a beautiful mistake
and if we both agree that we shouldn't
be together why does it hurt so much?
i feel like i lost my closest friend
i don't want to fall asleep alone
but do i want to wake up with you?
i hope you're happy and completely lonely

here we lay again
on two separate beds riding phone lines
you meet a familiar voice
and pictures drawn from memory
we reflect on miscommunications
and misunderstandings and missing each other
too much to have had to let go
turn our music down and we whisper
"say what you're thinking right now"

and i`m ready to turn the page,
forget all these errors and mistakes,
but of course you won't let me, you
love to showcase my inadequacy

the greatest challenge in life is to find someone
who knows all of your flaws, differences, and
mistakes  and yet  still  sees  the  best  in   you

being together is more than just physical. it's about understanding the other person, being there for them, talking for hours, making each other's dreams come true, being in love & not needing anything to keep it worthwhile

I'll be living off your phone calls and
your letters and your post cards
Every single word is like a secret wish
come true, who cares if were apart
for the big days since the small ones
made me fall in love with you

and i`m sorry if it didn't quite
work out this time, so you can
deal with your regrets, and i'll
deal with mine, and don`t forget
to call me when you 'make it' & 
for now, i`ll just think what i want ..

so don't explain because i know
exactly what your going to say,
big words, recycled phrases &&
the bittersweet taste of other girls
on your lips. so now just sit there and
talk about how you wanted it all 

on the day's we're not together,
i want you to remember.
you're braver than you believe,
stronger than you seem,
and you're smarter than you think,
but the most important thing to remember is
even when we're apart, i'm with you

& all the while it's hard to speak,
i often don't know what to say.. i've
never been in love this way..

To the girl that replaced Me::

you fell hard for his charm nd gorgeous looks. the way he makes you feel about yourself makes you like him even more. in your mind you are thinking "gosh, this boy is amazingg. how did i ever get so lucky?" he says all the right things to turn that bad day into the best day of your life. he makes you smile all the time. he says "i love you" nd you get butterflies in your tummy everytime he touches you nd kisses you. you trust him with your everything. he tells you everything, so you have nothing to worry about. to you, it seems like you couldn't get a better guy. he was there to catch you are your weekest moment, but now that he has caught you nd gotten you to trust him..... the real boy comes out. the boy that lies, cheats nd plays. it's a whole different ball game now. he starts to sneak around. he makes up stories for why he didn't call. he tells you that "you are the only girl in his dreams." sooner or later, he will cheat on you. you will have a bunch of people telling you that he is. you won't believe them at first, because this 'perfect boy' that used to play, changed. but lemme tell ya something, this perfect boy won't change. the way he is, it's too hard for someone to change. he jst has to grow up nd realize hurting the people you love most isn't worth a night of pleasure. but people keep telling you nd telling you that they saw your man with another girl. you still say "no, he wouldn't do that to me. he tells me everything nd i know he isn't like that anymore." you start to question your boyy about everything people keep telling you. he realizes that you found out his secret, gets mad nd starts going off on you. he tells you "jst believe them then. i give up. it's not worth it. fuck this." then he hangs up. he won't talk to you. he starts to treat you like crap. you think to yourself, "geez, it must not be true if he is getting this upset about it." ohh girly, what you don't know. this was still part of his game. he got mad at you so you would think that it wasn't true, so his game would still be secret. but since you questioned him about it... he is going to back off a little bit. he will stop talking to those girls as often until he knows he has your trust back. as soon as he knows you trust him, he's out to play again. as usual, people will start telling you to watch him because he's messing around again. you still don't believe them. you should believe them tho. they are telling you this because they don't want to see you get hurt. it's not because they don't want you two to be together or because they are trying to break you up. it's because they care about you, nd most of them have been hurt by him nd they don't want to see him collect another broken heart to add to his pile. you should be learning from my mistakes nd heartbreaks that he caused.... but seriously, Don't make the same mistake i did nd not listen to these people... because they will be telling more of the truth that he will. <|3

i'm not sure when i'm gonna have time for an update... but hopefully it'll be soon.

lovelovelove.

you say that by now
i should know you'll never love me
but who's to say that

what has never been will never be

Sometimes you love, learn, and move on
& that's okay.
-Prime.

if I had a dime for every time you
walked away, I could afford not to give a shit.

you shine so bright
you are the star thats in my sky
and i am yours
and you are mine

Don't take it as a compliment; just know it's straight from the heart.

You told me to leave you and never look back. But if I wasn't supposed to look back, then you wouldn’t still be here, staring me straight in the face as if to say, "I'm exactly what you want but you can't have me."

Why can’t we ever get over the guys that aren’t worth it?

Apologizing is like white-out
it covers up the mistake
but it never really goes away

you've changed so much, and i wish you knew how much you changed me. i wonder if i changed you..if your life is different cause of me cause mines different. you taught me so much and now we don’t even talk to each other, i guess that’s just what happens...

just keep smiling boy,

you're what keeps her alive.

Love is something you can't describe.
Like the look of a rose, the smell of rain,
Or the feeling of forever.

i must be a pretty good liar for you to honestly think that i just want to be friends..

I miss the way you treated me when I was young.
When you weren’t ashamed of what I've done.
When I wasn't supposed to be perfect.

I don't want anyone else to get the chance to realize how amazing you are.

i've got a mind boggling, sense numbing, heart pounding, stomach flipping, take my breathe away, head over heels, knee slapping, day dreaming, butterfly fluttering crush on you

& all at once, the crowd begins to sing, "sometimes the hardest thing and right thing are the same"

i'll never be over you, i'm just getting better at hiding tears & smiling when I really don't want to be. but, still, if i was ever asked what i missed most in life, i'd say you.

"they told me to find the girl i used to be."

maybe he's starting to see the real girl, the one hidden behind her… an ambitious, quiet, & self conscious girl. the one who loves her friends more than life itself & laughs about pretty much everything, just because she can. & that's what she thinks life is all about --having the time of your life.

You can see it in her eyes.

She loves him and it's killing her.

And the way I see it, yeah, I know I’m not over him… but I know I will never be over him throughout my entire life. So I just look at it like this. He will always have a big piece of my heart… always. But I just need to except the fact that its okay. I can still feel things for other people. And hopefully, I’ll learn to just be able to give the rest of my heart to someone else. But until then, I’ll just end up having fun in life. Hopefully I’ll meet the right person to get me completely over him... but until then, I’ll hope....

best friends are people who make your problems, their problems.. just so you don't have to go through them alone

That's how life is...
you have one great love and then
the other guys are just distractions.

just look me in the eye & promise me you'll never love anyone else.

You're a boomerang you'll see,

You will return to me.

He’s the one mistake,

She'll never regret. <3

here's to the shit we talk;; the guys we stalk;; the way we shop;; the laughs we cant stop;; the gossip we spill & the looks that could kill;; we'll stay together all through the years. best friends forever.

cory: it`s an interesting feeling, you know?
shawn: what, knowing it`s over?
cory: no, being the only person in the world knowing it isn`t.
--Boy Meets World

so dont you go forgetting how much i love you.

&& what she wants is actually pretty simple.

just a sticky note on her locker saying i love you.

or a daisy he found that morning stuck to her books,

because it`s the little things mean the most.

You have to try to make this easy
You have to try for me
Sometimes I'm scared that things could be
So much better than this
What's best is not right
Sometimes I wish that we could be
So much closer than this
But I won't look up when you walk away

I'll never be over you, I'm just getting better at hiding tears & smiling when I really don't want to be. But, I still, if I was ever asked what I missed most in life, I'd say you

know you, so better than
the city in the rearview mirror. I drive to
eliminate the ball that I'm chained too

I want someone who won't care that I never wear shoes, that I'm incapable of staying still. That I can't grasp the  concept of cleaning. That I refuse to be lady-like. Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make I'll regret & I have the right to over-react at any given moment. I want someone who knows that I'm completely insane & they wouldn't want me any other way

each night, it ends too soon. you don't
hold me like you used to. and your eyes
look like they've seen too much, cause it's
always some excuse.. this time i fear
im losing you.

when youre a beautiful person on the inside,
there's nothing in the world that can change  that
jealousy is a result of lacking self-confidence,
if you can't accept yourself than no one else can.

love is what you make it.

Look who's dying now.
Tears streaming down your face
it's funny how fate works.
what goes around, come around.
Watch your back, sweetheart.
They're out to get you.

i thought i could do this
without being attatched
just have fun
and not give my heart away
but all of a sudden
every smile
every word
stays with me
i can't get you out of my head
boy i can't get you out of my head

this is for you, my best friend, the one person I can tell my soul to. Who can relate to me like no other. Who I can laugh with to no extent, who I can cry to when times are tough, who can help me with the problems of my life. Never have you turned your back on me or told me I wasn't good enough or let me down. I don't think you know what that means to me. You have gone through so much pain & you still have time for me. & I love you for listening even when inside you are dying. & I look up to you because you are strong, & caring & beautiful. Even though you don't think you are. & I hope you know that I'm always here to listen to you laugh & cry & help in all the ways that I can. & I will try to be at least half the friend you are to me. I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, without you. My best friend.

There will come a time in your life when you will become infatuated with a single soul. For this person you would do anything and not think twice about it, but when asked why, you have no answer. You'll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you'll never find out. And no matter how badly you hate it, or how badly it hurts, you'll love this person without regrets for the rest of your life.

I need you here tonight. Just like the ocean needs the waves.

he makes me smile without even trying
if i said i didn't feel something for him
i'd be lying

He's just a boy who doesn't know
what's in front of him. And she's just
a girl who never learned how to let go

so don’t you go forgetting how much i love you.

I could kiss a million guys and it
still wouldn't mean half as much
as it does just to hold your hand.

you know they're your best friends when they wake
you up in the middle of the night and say
"bitch, move over!"

It’s surprising how many persons got through life without ever recognizing that their feelings toward other people are largely determined by their feelings toward themselves, and if you’re not comfortable within yourself, you can’t be comfortable with others.
-Sydney J. Harris

the best kind of kiss is the un-expected ; unplanned

ones that come naturally. like, in the middle of a sentence

Why does everyone leave?

i don't mean to be pessimistic.

but it's all the same.

miles mean nothing. best friends forever.

it never seems to last.

for me anyways, am i so bad?

all i need is you to talk to.

don't pretend, & don't fake it.

i need something real, for once.

something pure. something true.

i need you.

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